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Wednesday, August 5th, 2009
10:24 am	Long Time No Post...Again. So it has been over a year since I've been on here...I need to vent. I love my friends. I do. But sometimes it is nice to hang with other people. Big props to Travis, Brandon, and Greg with an appearance by Young for an excellent evening of food and game! I'm looking forward to next week. Work has been pretty good. I like the people I'm working with again. I've been in the depatment a year now and still not bored with it. Somedays tho boredom could be nice. Still single, no biggie there. Can't wait for my weekend off. Think that is it. Oh...Yeah..Go Team!! Current Mood: restless Current Music: Toby Keith - Should've Been a Cowboy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 3rd, 2008
10:36 am	Blonde Bimbo Alert Apparently doing 15 mph through the parking lot is ripping out of the lot!! Guess who complained!? You got it the bb twins and bb2's man. I just can't get a break. Does anyone know someplace hiring? I'm tired of this bs with these 2. My day may as well be ruined now.  I REALLY FREAKING HATE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Promiscuous - Nelly Furtado &Timbaland (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 2nd, 2008
12:09 am	Kat Call by ME Ok so I finally did it. I have the finished version of my vamp short story. I know some have heard of it. Others may be lost. But long story short, my vamp character I play as when I dress the vamp is who this story is about. Not the complete story by far but a good one. If you would like to read it leave me a comment or a pm or something and I will get back to you with it. I will down grade it if you need so let me know what software you are using for word processing. I'm currently running the newest os for microsoft office (aka 2007). Take care and let me know!! Current Mood: excited (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 30th, 2008
8:35 am	Decisions...Decisions... ( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) Current Mood: geeky Current Music: "S"peEd from Serial Experiments Lain Sound Track Cyberia Mix (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 22nd, 2008
9:26 am	Melodrama or not...  Have you ever looked at your life and gone, "Dear god(dess) is my life a soap opra?" For instance, you just break up with someone and then their sibling asks if you want to have sex. Yeah, I'll admit that happened. Hell it happened even when I was dating said person. Why does life go like this sometimes? Is it too much to ask for something simple? This is what it is looking like in my life...ex's brother offered me a night of sex, 2 girls flirting (1 with s.o. issues), ex still likes me (I did the breaking up this time), 1 friend I wish would see me as more than a nuisance, 1 friend who is invading my dreams again, and 1 friend who I'm afraid I've angered enough to make her stop talking to me. And no names, yall know who you are. I have been needing skin/touch contact again. I've been lacking it so much I'm almost willing to cuddle with a complete stranger...almost. I honestly hate when I get like this. I feel like I'm being so melodramatic. Doesn't help that the thoughts running through my head are disturbing but comforting but not something I will actually act on. So yeah my life the soap opera...Now I just need a title.  Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Big and Rich - Soul Shaker (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 7th, 2008
9:30 pm	Done...For now... I'm done with classes this semester. I can't take any this summer because of my mom's business that I help with when she goes out of town. I think that I do need an itty bitty break from learning. And Not sure if I'm going to be doing 2 math classes at a time again. Fall semester should work well. And may have to do 2 math classes to get my requirements done for my ba and ma. Saturday went well and so did most of Sunday. Saturday I ignored my alarm till 9 am and went skating. I'm getting back into it and doing rather well. I think that this summer may call for me to start taking private lesons again as I can't exactly keep working on a 10 foot by 30 foot piece of ice. When I got home I decided that I deserved a nice relaxing bath. So I soaked for over an hour. After that I made my way to moiracoon's for some good geeking and fooding. The food was awesome! The company too! Sunday after I finally got ahold of britin, and went to her journal and had one of those moments where you have the sudden urge to shake someone till they have the sense shook into them. So after she got all decent she came over we did chocolate and tv. The rest of this week has been pretty normal, so not much to say. I will say this I would prefer my allergy shots any day over a trig final. PL&H Daph! Current Mood: drained (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
7:56 pm	Ok. I'm still here. I've been busy these last few weeks rebuilding my life. It is kinda sad that one person can reak(sp?) so much havoc on another's life. I'll be in St. Louis(go cards!) for labor day weekend. I'm going to a ren faire in Wentzville. I'm excited! I've decided not to date right now. I think that is a good idea. If anyone cares, go ahead and IM me. If you don't have it...aim= tennyo69 that's the one I'm on the most. Current Mood: devious Current Music: anything from the 1980's (Comment on this)
Monday, April 11th, 2005
8:22 pm	I see a trend here... The Goddess of Water and Anger. You are a reclusive loner . Always wary and deliberate, once youve got a friendship, its for life and you are exceptionally considerate. You are a serene beauty. Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!) brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
8:15 pm	ok...sorry...this might be true... You are Wrath/Anger! Wow... who got you so mad huh ?? You have serious anger issues!! with a rage that seems somewhat deadly, and a temper that is easily raised, you are by far the scariest sin. You tend to let the little things get to you, and are stressed fairly easily - and woe be it to any of your enemies. On the positive side, you're independent, powerful and a definite leader, if you could just control your moods! Congratulations on being the toughest!! ...and the most independent of all the 7 deadly sins! ?? Which Of The Seven Deadly Sins Are You ?? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
8:01 pm	hrm...score?!? Your Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 Score Is... Your Score: Average For All Users Average For All Bisexual Liberal Single Pink-Skinned 18 to 24-Year old Females (42 total) Dating 11.54% 31.17% 23.72% Gone steady Self-Lovin' 18.18% 57.5% 53.25% I wouldn't shake hands, if I were you Shamelessness 45.16% 76.31% 70.81% Puts 'em on the glass Sex Drive 52.38% 73.86% 69.5% A fool for love, but not always Straightness 7.41% 34.91% 26.45% Knows the other body type like a map Gayness 7.41% 75.19% 58.07% Makes Dr. Frank-n-Furter look tame Dominant 68.33% 84.91% 84.52% Not afraid to tie the knot Submissive 44.44% 85.14% 80.73% A playtoy when the mood is right Fucking Sick 59.18% 88.46% 84.16% Dipped into depravity Total Score 38.21% 71.5% 65.61% Take The Ultimate Purity Test 2.0 and see how you match up! (By The Ferrett) Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
7:02 pm	hmmm...interesting...i think Dance the night away by karchan85 Name What you Look like The Music DDR Quiz created with MemeGen! Current Mood: nauseated (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 14th, 2004
9:10 pm	Evanescence - Imaginary Not much to say just wanted to share a song... Evanescence - Imaginary I linger in the doorway of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name let me stay where the wind will whisper to me where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby I lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me don't say I’m out of touch with this rampant chaos - your reality I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge the nightmare I built my own world to escape in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby I lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me swallowed up in the sound of my screaming cannot cease for the fear of silent nights oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming the goddess of imaginary light Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Evanescence - Imaginary (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 3rd, 2004
11:30 pm	blah to the 20th degree I'm not exactly what one would call happy tonight. Jason broke up with me last night or was it the night before or it might have been mutual..I'M NOT FUCKING SURE. Sean pulled a cruel joke on me, knowing I still like Jason in some way, tonight that involved some shit that happened (stuff that could have led to fighting but didn't and jail). And to be honest if Jason ended up in jail I would have prolly laughed...well I wouldn't have but it would be better than being uber worried...I'm a lil bitter towards men right now if you can't see. So if you have a penis thread lightly where sleeping leopards are is my advice. I will say that one guy is here for me though through every pain filled thing that's going on and every angsty moment. My ex-fiancee, Marcus, has listened to me through the whole thing. I owe him. Wish he was closer though. *sigh* I'm pissed, but I'm confused. I'm not sure what's happening. Things are really going too good for me. Well I think they are not sure though. v.v Yeah not going to bore you more with that. Peace out. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: E Nomine - Mitternacht (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 24th, 2004
12:15 am	Man...I just don't know where to start on this one...Ok...I'm dating someone at the moment. I've got a fucking headache. I dearly love Sean?..Yes...But sometimes I need things NOT said. Like I've been saying in here I may be moving to Arizona. The date keeps getting sooner and sooner. Last i heard oh maybe in the next 2 yrs. Now I'm hearing perhaps in 6 months. My school plans are going down the drain. I wanted to go to NIU to study teaching. *sigh* That is going pfft if I have to move. Yes have to move. I can't afford to stay up here and live. Not alone. I don't really know anyone who'd want to or would be able to move in with me. I'd never move in with a boyfriend or girlfriend...well maybe a girlfriend. It just honestly depends on who it is and how the relationship is. On other matters I got my breaks replaced. I wish that people would tell me about car maintenance cuz I have to wait for something to go wrong to find out about it. THEN I get yelled at cuz I know almost nothing about cars. Well now i know that if the breaks pump i need new breaks and rotors or however that is spelt. Yeah my life makes no fucking sense. *does the whole sad look and sighs hanging head and looking a little dejected* Seether featuring Amy Lee - Broken I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open And I don’t feel like I am strong enough ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away   What I need is someone to understand me and know me how I want to be known... Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Seether featuring Amy Lee - Broken (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 11th, 2004
12:57 am	Grrrr!!!! OK not like I wasn't feeling like shit before I got home from school finding out that the sources I used had to be quoted some how in the text when I didn't even paraphrase anything in my god damned paper(this dropped the grade on the paper significantly)...BUT I find out that my best friend's mom is being a total fucking bitch...AGAIN. Now he's get sick and fucking tired of this happening pretty much every day. AND I'm getting really fucking tired of it cuz it just pisses me off to no degree that she can't fucking respect him. Hopefully soon he will be saved from this crap. Me I'm just peachy...Peace out. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Tantric - Breakdown (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 1st, 2004
1:10 am	Wow... Wow...Never thought I'd have a social life...I do now sort of. I guess I'm trying to fill a void. Yes that has to be it. No, no it's not. Well not sure nough of that. I'm going to be writing a story soon. It will seem too real to some, like a dream to others, and a sad thought to more. The guys in my life: Riffy - You are a great guy and very cuddley. I'm glad to have you as a friend... Jason - Not sure too many mixed signals. And you DO NOT have a reason to get pissy or jealous or impatient with me or of people who make clear their intentions, in my opinion... Brian - Wish you were closer or that I was closer (story of my life). Good luck this week. Jim - Hope all is going well in Sydney and also hope you get to come home and visit all us silly folks in the USA. Miss you, too. Marcus - You know you have my love and that I'm glad you are finding friends and a job. Mia - Time to grow up and realize that you can't always play it to how you want it. Rich - You are doing good. Hang in there and be who you want to be. Greg - Glad you are doing well. Miss talking to you a lot hon. We have to do that more sometime soon, Saturday was awesome! Sean - Missing you a lot...Can't wait for youto get home. I love you hon and hope to see you soon...Love like the bestest friend I have. Eh heh. Some other stuff I won't put here but you know what it is more or less. My Life is coming into order. Yeah!?! Song below is to a friend whom I both worry about and miss and hope that he is well. You know who you are. I leave the following for yall. Peace out-Daphne Evanescence - My Immortal my immortal i'm so tired of being here suppressed by all of my childish fears and if you have to leave i wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me you used to captivate me by your resonating light but now i'm bound by the life you left behind your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams your voice it chased away all the sanity in me these wounds won't seem to heal this pain is just too real there's just too much that time cannot erase when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears and i've held your hand through all of these years but you still have all of me i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone and though you're still with me i've been alone all along Current Mood: numb Current Music: Evanescence - My Immortal (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 20th, 2004
11:25 am	*yawn* Mom's gone. I'm all alone. I've got class tonight. I'm tired. Let's see what happened since I posted last. Sean was over burning cd's for my mom's company McDuck Creations. Not much to say honestly. I'm just tired as fuck. Erm, I'll talk more later. Yeah that's all for now. Current Mood: tired Current Music: 2 (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 16th, 2004
1:46 am	I don't know what to do... ACEN Friday, got there met up with Cassie and Riffy. The dealers place thingy was closed by the time I got there. Oh well...Went and watched some of the programming. We got home about 1:30am, so I didn't get shit for sleep, which is 2 days in a row. Thursday night I was up till 3 am working on crap for my mom and woke at about 6ish to finish it. Also had to work all day friday...Saturday, I got up at about 6:30 but didn't go to bed till about 3 ish. Went and got Sashi. I  got BLAMED for getting them lost when we were trying to get to the con place. Oh yeah and when I was writing directions down my computer decided to reboot itself. So I had to wake Sean and ask for directions, which I'm sorry for having to do but I freaked out. Spent the morning with Sashi and Riffy. Riffy left with his friend who wasn't feeling to hot. So for the afternoon I played yugioh and took pics of cosplayers. What I bought for the weekend was 2 yaio's in japanese, a poster of Ayumi Hamasaki (she's wearing a cat suit with ears and tail), and the whole Sakura Diaries series. We took Sashi home, then went back to the con, which was not what I wanted to do but I had no choice. I'm like uber fucking tired and I CAN'T go to bed. I was crying because I'm being guilt tripped by Re. I gave them my last 5 bucks for gas, bought them food for the con and for when we're here at home, and they are staying here too. I'm so fucking tired, but I WAS crying, so now I can't sleep. I'm all stressed out cuz I gave them my last 5 for gas and because they want me to pay for parking which I think I already did...5 for gas+ 10 for food+2 in tolls=17 or it's +5 for pizza=22 either way I've saved them money and being miserable about not having money to spend on stuff. Parking is 11 bucks and I can't afford that. Not at all. I'm not even going to be able to buy anything. Ok I don't have to buy anything but I was kinda hoping I could commission something. Not happening. Now I'm thinking of not going becaus I can't even take pics till Sean and I try to see if his comp will take the cam's uplink cord. Got awesome pics. What my mom accused me of thursday night is still bothiring me. I'm cold and think I'm going to pass out shortly.  Don't want to black out like I do when I'm really tired. I do feel like the world is mving too slow but i know it's moving the same...Song fits mood. Talk laters hopefully. Peace out- Daphne Ps. *blacks out* Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Blink 182 - Adam's Song (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 13th, 2004
11:02 pm	yeah well sorta Pretty good day today. Started the new job at Dominicks. I got out early which means I got to Sean's early. We went to this chinese restraunt called the Jade Dragon. Honestly not bad. I had beef and broccoli and he had sweet and sour chicken, shared potstickers. Dinner was great. Got to ride around in the Accura. Sweet ass car. We went to his boss's place to get my ink and some cables a customer of his ordered. We went and delivered that. On the way there, we were tailed by this hummer. Guy was driving fast...I mean fast if we were doing 100 he was doing the same and sometimes more. We were ahead of him for a while then Sean was like "Fuck this the guy's in a hummer and this isn't my car." So we let the guy pass us...He proceded to call us a pussy. Did I mention he had to be almost 40 or so. I think it kinda ticked Sean off. Well he got over it. Trip took a lil longer than we thought. When we returned to his house, his mom proceded to rip his head off. I told him to breathe and it took him a little but after a hug he seemed to calm a bit. I left and ran a quick errand. v.v Could the night get worse? Yes. Mom just came in and accused me of doing drugs when I was gone cuz I look tired. Ok, nix that I look tired and i'm having issues with my fucking allergies AGAIN. Not like I don't like doing early mornings like I did today. 6 am starts fucking murder me. I've been working on her shit and I'm fucking my sleep schedule so she can have this copper thing to take with her. Going to bed late and waking at a 6 again to get it done before I go to work tomorrow. I hope I get a nap tomorrow before Re and Tim come for the convention. Now to let you know, I don't pitty Sean....BUT I do fucking hate how his parents treat him. Honestly, I think the world of him and have been happier since I've met him. I know this is kinda wierd, but honestly I feel like part of me is now whole. If you ref the soulmate entry, I'll continue with that. I DO believe everyone has their other half and that they are so much a like that sometimes they will never work. I also believe that we will find that person or be empty to some degree. Well, now I'm a little too depressed to type and I don't remember what I was going to type...Song goes out to Sean. I feel like crap now. Peace out. Nickelback-Someday How the hell did we wind up like this Why weren't we able To see the signs that we missed And try to turn the tables I wish you'd unclench your fists And unpack your suitcase Lately there's been too much of this Dont think its too late Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now I know you're wondering when (You're the only one who knows that) Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now I know you're wondering when Well I hoped that since we're here anyway We could end up saying Things we've always needed to say So we could end up stringing Now the story's played out like this Just like a paperback novel Lets rewrite an ending that fits Instead of a hollywood horror Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now I know you're wondering when (You're the only one who knows that) Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now I know you're wondering when (You're the only one who knows that) [Solo] How the hell did we wind up like this Why weren't we able To see the signs that we missed And try to turn the tables Now the story's played out like this Just like a paperback novel Lets rewrite an ending that fits Instead of a hollywood horror Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now I know you're wondering when (You're the only one who knows that) Someday, somehow gonna make it allright but not right now I know you're wondering when (You're the only one who knows that) I know you're wondering when (You're the only one who knows that) I know you're wondering when Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Nickelback-Someday. (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 1st, 2004
9:13 pm	blah... I don't know what to say. Today has been crap since the get go or would that be since I went to bed last night. v.v I really hate when my mood is like this. Last night wishing I was dead which I haven't done in a while. This morning I got ordered around since I woke. Had to clean, photograph, and do a whole bunch of other shit. Mom gave me permission to go to Sean's. Jesus Christ what am I a baby? No last check I was a 20 yr old woman. *sigh* I think I'm going to go cry. I just am hating how I feel right now. Off I go. Peace Out. Ps. there is a song stuck in my head but I have no clue what the title or band is called... Hoobastank - The Reason I'm not a perfect person As many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I wish that I could take it all away And be the one who catches all your tears Thats why i need you to hear I've found a resaon for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is You [x4] I'm not a perfect person I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I've found a reason to show A side of me you didn't know A reason for all that I do And the reason is you Current Mood: blah Current Music: Hoobastank - The reason (Comment on this)